It's eleven at night and I am tucked in bed with my teddy pulled in tight and yet slumber is nowhere to be found. My room is dark except for the tiny bit of light emanating from the corner where my cheap night light resides and I find it ironic that my cheap little night light was placed to provide me comfort and give me a sense of safety. However it provides no such reassurance as I know the monster fears no light and his appetite is far too vicious to bother with a tiny night light.
I hear him coming down the hall; his footsteps are heavy and scrape across the floor as he drags his feet. I can hear him hit the walls as he sways back and f
She looks up from her mother's shawl
Taking in everything she saw
From the darkened skies and crown of thorns
To whips and nails as his mother mourns
The pain and agony, is more than she can stand
Blood flowing through this helpless land,
Tears travel down her sweet young face
Wishing for that saving grace
Her mother pulls her tight and near
Trying hard to calm the fear
But in this dark and desperate time
Where faith becomes a punished crime
A small and precious, lasting gift
Made so easily and so swift
Given to those who are right and wrong
No discrimination cause its all who belong
The little girl, no longer in despair
Bows
She pressed her forehead against mine and assured me that all would be o.k. With the tears trickling down my already dampened cheeks, I couldn't be comforted by her words. The choice was mine to make and yet the pain was more than I could bare. I crumbled to the floor and she joins me; her arms wrapped around me tightly and my head nuzzled in against her neck. I breathe her in deeply and her scent soothes me almost instantly. I take mental inventory of every second we had spent with each other up until this moment. These moments will be all I have left in the aftermath. I felt like I was drowning in this pain and the promise to remain forever
Dark nights, hungry eyes, grasping at my coveted soul
Drowning in despair, suffocating in the air of the dead
Clouded visions of a faceless huntsman, falling into a shallow grave
Fear penetrates to the very depths of my core, ripping out my life, leaving a hollowed out shell of a lifeless being
Breaking the spirit, pushing me further into the dark unknown
Whispers fill my empty head, taunting, haunting, inviting
I peer up into the depths of my tormentor realizing the evil emanating from this dark abyss
The smell of decay flooding all senses
He leans in, enveloping my corpse
A face appears, chill inducing sneer, translucent skin.
Man
These shoes of mine
have been everywhere with me
from the top of a mountain
to the bottom of the sea
These shoes of mine
are like the story of my life
rough around the edges
tender and kind inside
These shoes of mine
have been laughed apon and teased
and though they seem not to care
they hurt deep within
These shoes of mine
are better than the name brand you wear
because you see,
mine have been everywhere
and have a lifetime of memories.
Her breath
shallow
labored
leaving her body in warm wisps
dripping in despair
Her heartbeat
racing
thundering
pounding in her chest
pumping feverishly
Her soul
weak
shattered
quivering in fear
looking for it's exit
Her mind
clouded
lost
searching for the answers
searching for clarity
Her life
slipping
fading
begging and pleading
for a quick and painless
end.
She walks in the door after a long day at a dead end job and before she has the chance to rest she has to start her second job of taking care of everyone else's needs in the house. She is worn and tired yet she can't seem to stop for a single moment. Whether it be that she fears it might stall her long enough to keep her errands and chores from being completed or that it may cause her to stop indefinitely. She is ongoing in her struggles and yet undeterred from it. From the outside looking in her peers see a strong hardworking woman with a tough exterior that seems impenetrable. But coming form a child that she bore, I know better. I know the
Death comes for me now, in the dark.
It's not how I expected, hoped for, prayed for.
It's slow, painful, torturous.
The air weighs heavy as it approaches, invading, suffocating.
I try to scream, cry, pray.
All I have is deafening silence.
This Dark Angel closes in on me.
It's face is a vancant black abyss, that stretches into the depths of nothingness.
It's frightning, horrendous, hopeless.
My thoughts race to find a way to quicken this.
Anything to hurried the process, I look about me for an answer -
but alas my efforts prove futile.
This is the end and my Soul is whats to be gained.
God, please save me, take me, heal me.
I see the innocence in your eyes
You never see me coming
I'll take you by surprise
I'm vicious and conniving
Your first reaction is to flee
Though you'd never have a chance
You can't run far enough from me
My skills are far too advanced
I become your weekend friend
You promise I'd never be anything more
But we both know where that promise will always end
A fleeting memory out the door
Soon I become your only ally
The one you faithfully turn to
The one you could never deny
The only one to sooth you
And as you become more dependent
I root myself deeper, no longer the inferior
Your former self begins its descent
You lose all h
These black tears of mine run down my face in despair. Why do they run? To flee from the sadness that has trapped my body. I dont blame them, Id run too if I knew that I could escape it.
It's eleven at night and I am tucked in bed with my teddy pulled in tight and yet slumber is nowhere to be found. My room is dark except for the tiny bit of light emanating from the corner where my cheap night light resides and I find it ironic that my cheap little night light was placed to provide me comfort and give me a sense of safety. However it provides no such reassurance as I know the monster fears no light and his appetite is far too vicious to bother with a tiny night light.
I hear him coming down the hall; his footsteps are heavy and scrape across the floor as he drags his feet. I can hear him hit the walls as he sways back and f
She looks up from her mother's shawl
Taking in everything she saw
From the darkened skies and crown of thorns
To whips and nails as his mother mourns
The pain and agony, is more than she can stand
Blood flowing through this helpless land,
Tears travel down her sweet young face
Wishing for that saving grace
Her mother pulls her tight and near
Trying hard to calm the fear
But in this dark and desperate time
Where faith becomes a punished crime
A small and precious, lasting gift
Made so easily and so swift
Given to those who are right and wrong
No discrimination cause its all who belong
The little girl, no longer in despair
Bows
She pressed her forehead against mine and assured me that all would be o.k. With the tears trickling down my already dampened cheeks, I couldn't be comforted by her words. The choice was mine to make and yet the pain was more than I could bare. I crumbled to the floor and she joins me; her arms wrapped around me tightly and my head nuzzled in against her neck. I breathe her in deeply and her scent soothes me almost instantly. I take mental inventory of every second we had spent with each other up until this moment. These moments will be all I have left in the aftermath. I felt like I was drowning in this pain and the promise to remain forever
Dark nights, hungry eyes, grasping at my coveted soul
Drowning in despair, suffocating in the air of the dead
Clouded visions of a faceless huntsman, falling into a shallow grave
Fear penetrates to the very depths of my core, ripping out my life, leaving a hollowed out shell of a lifeless being
Breaking the spirit, pushing me further into the dark unknown
Whispers fill my empty head, taunting, haunting, inviting
I peer up into the depths of my tormentor realizing the evil emanating from this dark abyss
The smell of decay flooding all senses
He leans in, enveloping my corpse
A face appears, chill inducing sneer, translucent skin.
Man
These shoes of mine
have been everywhere with me
from the top of a mountain
to the bottom of the sea
These shoes of mine
are like the story of my life
rough around the edges
tender and kind inside
These shoes of mine
have been laughed apon and teased
and though they seem not to care
they hurt deep within
These shoes of mine
are better than the name brand you wear
because you see,
mine have been everywhere
and have a lifetime of memories.
Her breath
shallow
labored
leaving her body in warm wisps
dripping in despair
Her heartbeat
racing
thundering
pounding in her chest
pumping feverishly
Her soul
weak
shattered
quivering in fear
looking for it's exit
Her mind
clouded
lost
searching for the answers
searching for clarity
Her life
slipping
fading
begging and pleading
for a quick and painless
end.
Dark night grasping at my soul
Drowning in despair, suffocation on dead air
Clouded visions of a faceless pursuer, falling into shallow graves
Fear penetrating to my very core, ripping out my life, leaving a shell of the living, the breathing
Breaking the spirit
Pushing me further into a dark unknown
Whispers fill my empty head, taunting, haunting......inviting
I peer up, stare into the depths of the faceless, realizing the evil emanating from this dark abyss
The smell of decay flooding all senses
He leans down, enveloping my corpse-like body
A face appears, blood red eyes, chill inducing sneer, translucent skin
Man like features f
Dawn creeps upon us
Making our night a waste
His words still ring in my ears
Denouncing his love for me
His hand, brushes against my arm
The touch, once warm and filled with promise
Seems, at this moment, like ice .empty
Realization of his lies and deceit hit hard
Our future, no longer the vision of nirvana and wonderment
Replaced with something dark ..desolate
I look to him, for him
But the man who had filled my life with love, pleasure, undeniable desire
No longer exist
A stranger lay next to me now
Rays of light shine over his face
A face thats used to hold my thoughts hostage
A face that could stop the eart
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